i cant say everything out. so just a rough.

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just ate a fulling muffin and a few pieces of pineapple for breakfast. last den 30 mins i got to step out of hse to work.
so unwilling to go to work. thinking of de job scope makes me wanna NUA on bed, be fat.

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have u guys ever been outcast b4? by friends, colleagues, family or even own boyfriend? mayb not really outcast but neglect? i just so feeling it right nw. busy schedule makes him sometimes just so neglecting me. de attention i can see is no longer on me anymore. de past him, just willing to do everything to make me smile. but nw de focus in on friends no longer on me. de patience given to me is getting more and more lil everyday. i feel so afraid knowing and sense so much. coz i rather be dumb to be treated in anyway. rather nw i keep being so down. i can sense " YUE LAO " isnt doing his job over my side. ):

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off to work