why. just why happiness end so fast. and pain stays so long.

why we just cant like other couple. i always ask myself.. r all this retribution? im just arent worthy.

right nw.. the pain still stays inside my deep heart. very deep inside. struggling to get out. but just cant.. i cant stand de pain.. i couldnt make it go away. i try to immune myself. but im still so fresh. fresh with de pain. why everything just got to go so quickly.. so many question mark in me right nw. my tears just like water tap. keep flowing and flowing.

so much things happen 1 shot to me. family quarrels. serious quarrel with him. bills came in as usual. is there anything can let me slp till de next morning? i so wanted to call him. but i guess he might not want to hear my voice. holding onto my HP waiting for him. click onto new msg. but i just starred blankly at de white screen. i wish he would be here with me at this moment. why am i so brking apart.

how many times muz we face this kind of unhappy moments? it got more and more serious each time.. im feeling some1 strangling me right nw. i couldnt breath. couldnt move.


i hope im dead.
let me be..