plenty of DVDs to marathon soon.. dad got me love guru, dark knight, hellboy2 and shaolin girl.

suddenly within 1min i've lost 210$.. T_T stupid HP bills and SCV/internet! CRIES.. dad kuku sports channel cost me 30 already.. YAWNS.. i nid to work more den a week to gain back this money.. Sigh*

alright back to topic.. work today us usual.. watch 4bia recently. hmm` i dont really recommend it. coz its sucks! IT SCARES DE FOR 2 HOUR! LOL.. ok la its a 7/10 ba. consist of 4 diff stories. and last story really nearly pull my heart out of me. at de 2nd story i nearly request BF to leave de cinema.. i really swear to god. i nearly cry and vomited. its so dam gross and scary can. WTF! uh no! suddenly reminds me of park mall BAN MIAN with EE MIAN. T_T im tempting it right nw. saying about food. i got NO idea why i am gaining weight when i eat SUPER lil! this morning was 49! den after work come bak 51! SOBS. BF say i too much gas inside tummy coz im angry with him until this moment T_T.. i just wanna constant 50 la pls! SOBS..

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i just simply dislike uninvited party and group gathering. well, i couldnt really explain de feeling. but i just dont like. somekind of ego i think. well..

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lappy on a kind of stupid cookie virus

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recently im on beer delight. keep having beer b4 slp. or sometimes VODKA. and right nw i have de whole collection of small VODKA already. rdy to collect de medium 1. LOL..
im having abit of sleepless night. due to money and BF. diff kind of ppl have diff kind of view and acknowledgment towards love. as for me. my point of love its undefined la. but simple expectations sure have.. like, simple understanding, some sacrifice, basic care and concern u muz give. mayb i really meet diff kind of guy. SUCKS big time 1, flirter, two timer, violence, and so on.. so of coz i know and can see guys more clearly this time.

if u r bored.. seeking out of entertainment. i dont mind. but why ppl just love doing things behide ppl's back.. even though he/she noe tat is F rong?
- break promises
- lies
- inconsistent
1 thing i simply couldnt take it is.. she/he claims tat she/he understands. but things nv change. she/he can keep nodding head says " i really understand how u feel le, promise me i wont do it again"

this is just a so common sentence to be said am i right? or shall i say this ppl just isnt rdy for love? couldnt sacrifice to change yet?

another 1.. hacking care.

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sometimes. wat i wan and think is very simple.. i wanna be a carefree person right nw. i noe de only possibility is being single. coz u will have no worries..

but wat i belive is.. being attach u too can be carefree. including ur partner understands ur needs/wants. but i guess.. i haven met him yet. the him is either hiding? not rdy? being tied on? i dunno.

i guess i muz keep trying. if not..





i will just give up 1 day..
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