YAWNS~ 9AM-6PM today. not really tired. but physically abit. still alright. BF fetch me off work ((: vesak day coming. time for my vegetarian food. i guess my last vegetarian food was last yr? LOL

just had fish n chips and fried oyster. while bf have chicken chop. sometimes i just really wish tat im already a big fat woman. so i wont have any worries with food and getting fat.

theres something just kept trapping inside my mind. hope after this blog. i can get de cfm thing and ans of wat am i feeling uneasy about.



sometimes i just feel tat my BF is just so simple. simple tat any girl can just looks nice to him. or mayb watever he say he totally have no meaning of wat im thinking off? its like in this world. woman/girl to him looks average. he dont have any ideal woman or specific kind of girl he prefer. no matter face look sharp or round. he is still ok with it. its like he see happy. means is equal to nice. tat make me sometime very messy. and stupid me always trying to look good and nice to him. but just simply catch no attention. its like he can even say a short pants and t-shirt girl looks pretty. just trying to look presentable for him. but its like i just simply dont have to. which sometimes makes me super sians.

its like i so wish to noe wat kind of specific girl he really will get attracts to. so i can take caution when we r out? =x lols i dunno? its like all kind of ladies he oso will look at. esp i see those XMM he just like to see? or mayb bcoz of his BG. i always thinks he prefers XMM. coz only XMM like he this kind of guys. i just couldnt get de point of whether he is looking at girls or not. and keeps bothering me.

i just couldnt pull myself to trust him totally. wats rong with me. and im tired of it frankly. i hate wild guessing game already. or mayb of wat he did to me b4. makes me having phobia?




alright its 9PM nw. off to get some game to release my stress and tiredness. CYA