after reading his blog. i guess i've made my mind super clear right nw. i finally had those kind of fishing feeling.

placing a bait into de sea waiting for fish to be caught. its like no matter is small bait or big bait. if de fish is hungry or wants to. u will get de fish. theres no such thing as big bait big fish small bait small fish. i oso belive in suitable bait for suitable fishes. and u will even get no fish. de patience u gave, ending up is nth. de effort u place ended up empty. i think this is de best time to define my feeling right nw.

i belive every relationship isnt smooth during de start. its defintely will be rocky. we quarrels to get better argue to know each other well. im started to know BF well right nw. and right nw. i guess i really nid a pause. im very lost. i've nv been so lost b4. i wan this relationship so much. i nid him so much. and somehow. why why. i couldnt define clearly right nw.

im losing confident in this relationship already. 好想哭