coz usually uses lappy to blog. and lappy have already rmb all my login name and pw so dont have to type anything. but this time i using desktop to blog. i sign in for so long la! lols. keep cannot rmb which den is my login id and pw.

alright later i going out with mom to visit 公公. haven been visiting him since chinese new yr. i still misses my granny de most. suddenly feeling so emo. i feel so helpless.
just changed my friendster name to 蛋蛋宝贝 im a acting cute? when he is calling me tat. so is it means he acting cute too? or is he refering to only he can call tat? but not others? "this few days i think ur cute is no longer natural. is all being act by you" this sentence i got totally disturb by it. 心好烦.

and suddenly recall. why he dont allow me to blog bad things in my blog. this is my blog = my diary. why cant i. anyway he says he wants me to be in his shoes. and he is the 1 writing such "act cute" nick in friendster. and says i get jealous more easily. ya i agree i get jealous easily. who dont? unless i have no feelings for u. i just wanna put wat u usually calls me as my name wats rong. "think of my bf" ya i think of u tats why i put it. but anyway i've already change it. and im tired. this cant do tat cant do. giving to u everything. since im blogging already might as well state everything out ba.

whenever i wanna eat something, i always get a negative ans from him. whenever i wanna go a place to shop. i too get a negative ans. u wan me to understand you but 1st understand me. pls explain to me wat makes u dont want to. and why is it everytime. whenever i asked u to follow me to shopping. u sure sian half. if dont watse money i dont mind window shopping. but why cant u accompany me? i can make myself to go along with u. can stay beside u when u r doing ur things. but did u?

PS. i really nid sometime to cool down myself. leave me alone 1st. when i feel better i will contact u.