has been nearly a week ler` time passes so fast. kinda scary oso~ he is still on my mind. is like some kind of virus which cant be deleted even if euu reformat de com. unless euu change de motherboard of this com.

everyday his face sure flashes thru my mind. like routine ler. hahas~ sho much things in my mind wanna tell him. but ii cant. just cant. ii onli can secretly c wat is he doing and gratz him thru pm or buddy chat~ we dun get together nw often in game coz he is always lvling. his ans to me is bcoz he has been slacking too much when we r together.

ii still rmb mii asking him tu meet during holidays. ans given was, c de time slot coz he wanna chiong maple. tat hurts. but, haha~ is a past tense already. this coming monday is our annivesary IF we r still together. but we arent. ii want tu hold his hands again. but ii cant anymore. i miss his smile everything. even when im out. happily playing. been screen by police *nervous* he is still on my mind. nv step out at all. cant. just cant. guest cum owner in my mind. ii saw his msn display pic. painful, but at least i noes tat he is happi rite now.

his best fren HY, which i always call npknight thru maple. oso brk up with his gf. heard alort thru my junior saying about her also. impression so so lor. but HY seems alright oso. but hw come onli i seems not rite? hahas.

ii gort a bottle of slping pills with me rite now. and is full. sometime is so hurtful till i wanna glurp it all down. den my maple nu er say, euu will suffer from coldness till mind blank till vomit bubble and so on. all those horrible things. den he ask, so u still wan tu sucide? haha~

my birthday coming soon ler. 7 days more? =) ii wan tu celebrate with him. =(
been resting too much on bed recently~ seems backache nw. and my nose bleeding has been stop since yesterday. wednesday i will be annowcing something over here oso~ so to maple.

he wont be visiting my blog de. so ii can onli express everything thru here. i still misses euu alot dear. alot~

ii wan tu listen tu euu singing { my paper heart } again. ii wan tu c ur hair been pin up by me again. ii wan tu hug u each time ii sees euu. ii wan tu bring euu off sch daily. ii wan tu bring u diff kind of biscuits daily. ii wan tu haf ur care each time im sick. ii wan tu feel ur warmness again. ii wan tu hear ur laughter from fone and each time we meet. ii wan tu c ur angry face. ii wan tu c our megafones on maple. ii just wan every of euu. just euu. pls come back =((