obviously din blog fer 5 days liao le~ abit lazy ma~ alot of thing happen~ had a quarrel wit moi bunch of frens~ [bois la] is not i cant take joke~ mayb u all make fun at de rong time ba~ anyway frens fer so long~ is really hard to forget~ haiya, drop this subject~ now moi days is work and study nia~ kind of bored~ den he always go out without me of coz~ hafing fun outside bub me? haiz~ is really hard to hold on such a weak relationship~ i am not tired` bub~ haiz, juz cant explain~ we r strong sometimes~ <-- some lil time la~ going home from sch takes me 1 hr plus~ travel on bus 105 seeing lots of couples giggling, smiling, hugging, joking, quarreling~ reach bus-stop light up a cigarrate~ seeing couples again walking around holding hands~ goodbye kisses given to each other` all this stuff juz make me dam envy~ where is all moi happi time? every nite i juz cry to moiself in de mirror~ i haf wat i wan~ is it not enuff or wat~ i drop moi tears` no one noes~ silently i wipe off moi tears` telling moiself tml will be a better day~ bub still every nite i am juz wasting moi tissues on tears` telling him hw i feel~ expressing out moi feelings to him~ is like taking a knife stabbing thru moi own veri heart~ each time a rough tone he given me` moi eyes start to make fun of me again~ hu can i turn to` no one noes hw am i feeling~ time and time i am telling moiself to be strong~ i juz cant~ i dun need him in moi life` without him i can live` is not bcoz i am alone den i need it~ is tat i really love him with all moi heart~ i can find thousands of lies to lie to moi dad` juz to be out with him~ i really treasures each time we together~ when u say, u wanna meet me~ i am desperately happi~ even if u meet me with ur frens` or meet u up to c u playing cs~ i am still happi` coz i am with u~ we r not in de same sch` bub we still quarrel everyday` i am holding on~ i try not to be angry each time u tok back to me` trying to make u happi` bub end up` slamming down de fone is u~ izzit tat easy to slam down ur darling fone call~ dun u noe tat hurts? every nite things keep running and running thru moi mind` wat u wan~ sometimes de way u act or tok~ i feel tat u r childish~ so wat i feel u r` in de end i am de one apologise and cry fer ur forgiveness~ wat others think of us is lovely~ bub haf they seen our world~ tears more den laughter~ i dun wish to say any more~ *tears droping bub still wish tat our relationship will grow stronger each day*